Wow......

I have to admit this is a first in a looooong time......

My tummy rumbled to let me know that I was hungry but I have no idea what I want to eat. I have no obsession or a food cravings to help me make the decision I'm not sure what I'm going to do.

Usually working at the second job has me around this food all the time and normally I'm thinking ahead of what I'm would like to order if I could but for some reason today nothing is really piques my interest.

I guess I'm going to have to give this a real long think.....I like it!

Well I did it.....

It was really scary leaving a group on FB!  Wow I didn't think it would have been that stressful but it was.  I don't have any resentment towards anyone in the group and I was very polite and thanked everyone for their support and added a *waves goodbye* at the end.

I think that was the start of it and then I moved onto the blog and redesigned it a bit.

Who know what I will do next but I will let you know LOL

With Thanks

I had a session with Susanne this weekend and we had plenty to talk about.  Most of the session was in regards with me leaving Poon and how it felt. As odd as it sounds it was kind of liberating since the obsession of foods was gone.  I know it is hard to explain, but if you have eve been told no for what ever reason you will know what I am talking about.

This got us on the topic of Dr. Sarah and how my physical in November is going to go. When I saw her in 2011 she gave me the ultimatum of Poon or gastric.  Well in mind back then I thought it was in its infancy and wasn't sure. So now I know that option is going to be tossed back on the table. So Susanne and I explores this since I am sure Susanne is very aware of the surgery.

For those of you that don't know what it is, it is a surgery that physically makes your stomach smaller so it will only hold 4 ozs at a time.  See the picture below:

So Susanne told me that now I have been seeing her for a year that she thinks that I would be a good candidate for the surgery since I am a BLT'er (bites, licks and tastes) since I crave a taste of food not a plate of it. We also discussed that it isn't what I put in, it is how much I put in. This reverts back to my childhood of closet bingeing and "getting my money's worth" when money was tight.

So she told me to do my homework before we get together in 2 weeks and I would like to thank my big sis C, Nads, Miss A and a rekindled friendship with Hills who has open their hearts to me about their journey. Thanks also to my DH since he said he will support me In whatever direction I take.

It is a bit hard to wave good by to Poon since I have mase friends but I do hope that we can still have a strong supportive relationship with each other.

I will keep you posted on what I do.

To quote Exposé......

"Seasons change, people change" and "feelings change"

Thanksgiving here in Canada is a sure sign that the seasons are changing!  This was our 5th year of camping for the DH, the dogs and I and the 3rd year with C&F in Alliston at the Nicholston Dam.  it is a GORGEOUS place and we paid a bit more for a waterside site.

This is the view we had from the site.

And year after year I get more creative with cooking over the fire.  First year was just the turkey breast on the campfire and this year was the turkey, potatoes, green beans, cauliflower and F's chicken strips.  When everything was said and done we had a quite the feast!

The work in progress

The finished yummy-ness












Things were definitely changing for my friends around me too.  Maine was able to have a 2nd interview so I am sending her good vibes and we even went out for lunch before hand.  Since I had been on a few 2nd interviews I was able to give her a few tips on what they might expect.  It hasn't been long enough yet for her to find out if she got the job or not.

 

Now on the flip side of the coin from getting jobs to losing jobs.  I came on Thursday to find out that Miss A, DoxyLover along with one of Las Chi Chis were walked out before 8 am.  I was absolutely shocked since all of us were all sitting in a webinar the day before. All 3 of them are doing well and I am sure that they will find something soon since they are smart and know their stuff.  So I went armed with Chinese food for supper and had a good chat with DoxyLover and Mr DoxyLover and the DH for a few good hours.  We all lightened the mood by watching the latest Big Bang Theory before the DH and I headed home.

 

I guess things come in 3's.....The 3rd change would be the fact I was asked to leave the Poon program.  I have been off and on the wagon for 2 years and was told that others that have been in the program have lost all their weight by now and are on maintenance.  Myself?  I have lost 25 and gained back 30.  So I had a great first 6 months and then slowly gained it back.  I prayed last night about the day and I had a dream about all my friends that had gastric bypass or Lapband held a support group since I just had "one" of them done.  Maybe I am reading too much into it? Or maybe this might be the direction I need to go?  Who knows but I know that Dr. Sarah isn't going to be happy when I go my physical next month.

Uh oh......

This is a short one while I can :)

I had a SoCom meeting with mi amiga and some others today and we were talking about our big dressy Christmas party. 

We decided that we were going to have take away presents for the office to have and last year we had some nice scarves and shrugs so we couldn't do that again.  Everyone has different jewellery tastes and I know for a fact DoxyLover doens't wear and and neither does Navy Wife.  So we brainstormed and came up with the idea of having some pampering stuff including chocolates.  We they are joking that there is going to be tasting and samples.  I am sure it will be good stuff but will I have the will power or will I give into it all?  I guess time will tell.

I am off to a session so I guess I will post again later!

Love, life and the cancer way

What a week (I am sure more than that) it has been!

The DH and I celebrated our 16th wedding anniversary together and believe it or not you are supposed to give silver holloware......I had no clue what that was until I went googlin' and found out it is silver that would hold something.  Well he doesn't drink that much so a goblet or flask is out of question, they suggested bowl or vase, nope on that one too.  So I finally found something that resembles silver and they technically hold something.  A stainless steel BBQ set and I had the case engraved.  Not too shabby if I say so myself :)

We had a nice dinner and a chat at a new resturant that was my choice and I really enjoyed myself.

Things with Susanne are really going well.  I feel like I am making good progress with her and we have been able to understand some of my food eating habits.  We found that I need to make things fun in order for me to enjoy it.  So we think that is why I enjoy making food for others since I like to see the smile on their faces as they enjoy what I create.  So I am starting to make Poon "fun" for myself by trying new recipies and chaning it up a little bit.  So far I have been able to find a good alternative for my brekkie and snacks for work and now I just need to be home long enough to make suppers LOL. I am looking forward to Thanksgiving since I will be spending time with the DH and C&F who I haven't really seen since this time last year. We are hitting our regular haunt for camping and I am looking forward to a 3 day detox. I have been off and on the wagon for a while so I am thinking that this and my sessions are going to set me up for success.

Some of the ladies here ventured out and walked the CIBC Run for the Cure that was 5 kms in length in Burlington.  We called ourselves "Las Chi Chis" with is Spanish for "The Boobies" and I made up some shirts for us to wear.  I do admit that I had the best of intentions of running it with Ohio and mi Amiga but there was one excuse or another and all 5 of us walked it.  We didn't set any land records for walking it but there was just shy of 4,000 particpants and a fair amount was raised.  The bunch of us decided that we would do it again next October and we will be all decked out to enjoy the day.